Author: Logan
they teach you that drugs are bad
but they don’t teach you how to deal with the pain when you’re sad
nobody warned me it could get this bad
i swear i continue to lose everything i’ve ever had
but what do you do when you don’t give a fuuck
when your minds in a rut
always blame things on bad luck
and how the fuck is my mind so sick
life threw me lessons but it never would click
I thought I figured it out, finally found my cure
but all these pills do is put my mind in a blur
the devil asked me to dance so I said sure
it’s gotta be better than the feelings I endure
i swear it was working I couldn’t feel a thing
didn’t realize all the destruction that it could bring
I hurt people around me i hurt the ones that care
but then without them life became a fucking nightmare
I had had enough so I did something that was rare
I said i’m done doing drugs i swear
this pain is nothing i can bare
then the truth was revealed
everything became crystal clear
the pain will follow no matter what it’s always near
do i give up or persevere?
nothing really mattered the drugs were never enough
and everyone swears that i am so tough
little do they know i’ve been drowning cause life is rough
nothing seemed to stop me even being in handcuffs
i gave up everything, every dream
i was living on the streets without a fucking thing
as long as i had these substances to get me through the night
i swear my eyes used to shine so fucking bright
but now i struggle everyday to even find a light
tryna find something inside me to that I can ignite
but all i seemed to find was an evil gunfight
i’ve been at war with myself for as long as I know
no wonder why it feels impossible to ever let go
I been hurting bad and my eyes always show
eventually I realized the drugs had complete control
kinda like the government and the secrets that they hold
I started to think would i ever feel whole
and can I even reach a goal
if only I knew how it would unfold
i found a girl and I swear I had found gold
her personality shined so bright she was beautifully bold
so tell me how someone can turn so goddamn cold
I loved her so hard I never thought I could let go
my heart was broken but it fell apart a long time ago
I wish she knew my feelings but I always struggled to show
maybe if I tried harder she would still be by my side
but deep down i know she’ll forever be my ride or die
she really is the only one that can make me cry
but I still never want to fucking say goodbye
I’d give up anything even getting high
I mean that with all I have I can’t even lie
I don’t need anything else she does more than satisfy
when i’m with her I feel like I could fly
you really only meet someone like this once in a lifetime
I fell in love right away she needed to be mine
everydays a good day even if we out committing crimes
damn you should see this girl she’s a fucking dime
with her there’s not a mountain i couldn’t clime
when i’m with her i’m always in my prime
the day she left me destroyed me inside
I couldn’t get her off my mind as long as i tried
I needed something strong to make me numb
I would’ve pulled the trigger if I had a gun
what’s a life without my love I swore she was the one
when she was mine I swear I had won, like I hit a home run, if anyone were to hurt her i’d pull up w a shotgun
It hurt so bad I needed something strong
I was so down couldn’t even hit the bong
cause when I did she stayed on my mind for so goddamn long
then one day someone offered me a remedy
they said I promise you I found the perfect recipe
it’ll heal you mentally
way faster than therapy
so do you want the key?
please yes give me anything
I don’t care what it may bring
help me breathe
then they handed me something that would never leave
growing up we learned to stay away from any hard drug
but they must not know the feeling when it goes straight to your blood
that type of rush can’t be beat by any fucking hug
the needle is evil in the sweetest kind of way
the deeply rooted pain quickly began to slip away
this feeling of bliss i need it to stay
yes i had finally found the strongest getaway
even though i kept dying every other day
you’d think that would be enough for me to make a change
but nah I gave the dope man my life in exchange
I turned into a zombie from this game
I would find anything to blame
I didn’t even recognize the person I became
I knew it was lame and I was living in shame
and all the fiends seemed to feel the same
I could tell we were all tryna escape the fucking pain
the amount of lives i’ve had to save is truly goddamn sad
nobody does heroin unless things are really fucking bad
you know your head ain’t right
when you can’t sleep at night
never have an appetite
life doesn’t matter n i’m losing the fight
i don’t give a fuck if I make it through the night
life turns darker and I struggle to ignite
really losing all the light
everybody now notices my eyes don’t shine so bright
if your dancing with the devil just know he will bite
living this lifestyle your guaranteed to lose the fight
addiction is a battle nothing happens overnight
but if you put the work in you can take back your life
cause if you keep it up you’ll soon see the afterlife
don’t you want to feel alive? right now your just living to fucking survive
I promise you can make it through and you’re gonna thrive
don’t let your friends and family have to say goodbye
the pain you put them through is never worth the high
addicts know addicts n we always justify
but take my advice all of your problems will just multiply
and soon enough nothing will satisfy
i’ve lived my whole life using drugs to get by
you’ll have dual personalities like a gemini
now i want you to look me in the eye
i know your not happy and you can’t deny
listen to my words cause i only speak the truth
I wish I could turn the time back to my youth
I promise you there are better ways to soothe
because right now you don’t even know you
still feel so blue from what you’ve been through
stop destroying yourself if only you could see my point of view
just make sure your chillin with the right crew
you’ve been through hell there’s nothing you can’t do
n the real ones will always help you through
forgive yourself you’re only human too
pain is inevitable there’s nothing you can do
but you can grow from it or it’ll control you
you don’t need to fight this battle alone
i know you always try to do it all on your own
I promise it’s easier here try some methadone
don’t live up to expectations, set up your own milestones
i know it’s hard but it’s okay to ask for help
stop the torture nobody can do it themselves
let people make it easier for you
love and support always helps you make it through
there’s no timeline recovery’s not a straight line
and relapses happen don’t let it be a reason to decline
you still have people rooting for you on the sideline
recovery is a process it’s hard and it hurts
but i know it’s fucking worth it if it gets you out the dirt
no matter where you go your addiction will always lurk
you’ll always be an addict and it’s constant fucking work
but don’t let it define you cause you have so much worth
I hope you fall in love with being alive
you’ve struggled a lot it’s been a long drive
you deserve happiness and some peace of mind
so give yourself a chance and leave that shit behind
