Thanks to Jodie G. for submitting this piece.
So, I woke up today (my usual cheerful self in the mornings🥴), letting a snarled “good morning” out from under my breath.
Went about my morning, had some prayer and meditation, played with my puppy, and tried wiping the sleep from my eyes.
Here’s what I know about today. Today is all I have. Yesterday is gone and tomorrow may never come.
So for today, I know this: Today I walk a free woman. Not in the sense many of you may think, but in the spiritual sense.
For years I lived in a dark place, suffocating inside my own skin, silently dying inside.
What I felt: Lost. Hopeless. Angry. Resentful. Hurt. Shame. Guilt. Defensive. Misery.
What I tried to portray: Happy. Confident. Successful.
The lie lasted for far too long, until my insides spilled out onto the outside.
It was then, when I felt broken beyond repair that a HAND reached out. What I had left to bring was a smidge of willingness. The doors were wide open.
I slithered (if you will) through the doors. It has taken time for all the shattered pieces to be picked up and repaired, but inside the workshop the miracle transpired. Inside the workshop, this broken woman was lovingly repaired.
I have true friends today, and even more surprising, I can be that true friend to someone else.
I can look people in their eyes. I can admit my wrongs.
I can know that my God is there and will lovingly guide me through this life.
I can genuinely smile today.
I can laugh, and more importantly, I can cry and not feel shame for doing so.
I can FEEL. I can feel happiness, sadness, pain, frustration, anger, and so much more. I no longer need to stuff the feelings I ran from for so long.
I can accept that I am human, and in being so, I am NOT nor will I ever be perfect.
I can accept my flaws and in doing so, I can be aware of them and can ask for help with overcoming them ONE DAY AT A TIME.
I can journey through this walk called life and know that I AM NOT ALONE.
These are the miracles that have happened to me.
I have been blessed beyond my wildest dreams.
I have a relationship with God today that I didn’t think was possible for me. I
f you or anyone you know is struggling with something, just know you are not beyond help.
You are loved. You are worthy of grace. You are worthy of happiness. You are worthy. All you have to do is reach out and ask.